I don't understand. I feel unmotivated and hopeless but nervous, worried, and scared at the same time as well as empty. I have a harder time doing stuff now. I can't even see myself in the future like I have been able to before. I'm having suicidal thoughts. I don't know what's going on. I don't think I ever felt this way.
I think you already know. Your depressed. You need either a therapist or antidepressants or both. I hope you feel better soon.