I have bad anxiety and depression. When I used to go to school, I'd drink beer and vodka in the morning just to cope with going to school. After I left, this stopped. But for a few months now, I can't go out without having a few beers in the morning. And I make sure not to eat anything so that I feel tipsy/drunk. Even going to the food shop is difficult for me if I don't have a beer. Now it's not only with going out. Even if I know I'll be at home all day, I just feel that if I don't have a beer in the morning, I won't be able to function. This used to be the case with weed, but I thankfully quit that. It made me too lazy and binge a lot. I wish it didn't, because weed is healthier, but it's impossible. I could barely walk up the stairs when I smoked. But am I an alcoholic? I went on a date with this guy the other week. We went to the lake and it was around 4pm. I said "wanna drink some beer?" and he was like "already? okay" and then I told him I already had one at lunchtime and he said "that's shocking" but I didn't know if it was a joke. I don't want this to effect my life too badly. Should I speak to someone about it? Thanks.
You need to check yourself into a rehab. I think one of the best is Teen Challenge which does a lot more for you than just get you off alcohol. Is there one of those facilities in your area? They don't ask for a lot of money and will take in people who can't afford to donate much. They are a non-profit organization. They are Jesus freaks too, (with lots of love and care) so get some help. You are an alcoholic and it will only get worse unless you get some help.