I'm a 16 year old girl. I have been trying to figure out what's wrong with me without having to go to the doctor about it. I've been struggling with self-harming for a while. I've also been struggling with eating as well. Last summer i stopped eating and when my mom would make me eat i would make myself throw it up. I actually have a fear of being fat. It's hard to explain but I don't eat because I'm scared to gain weight. When I look at myself in the mirror I see myself as fat. People tell me all the time that I'm not but i look at myself and see it. I don't think weighing 97 pounds is good enough. Tuesday night my ex boyfriend told me I was fat. Now I know you're probably thinking "Why would you believe your ex boyfriend?" I get that he was probably just saying that, but he knows I have these problems. I guess my question is what is wrong with me? Like, do I have anorexia? I can't go to the doctor without my mom knowing. Can anyone help me? I don't know what to do.
I can't imagine why you wouldn't want your mom to know that you want professional help. You absolutely must get to a doctor as this stuff can kill you. There may be a way for you to get help through a clinic, but you'd have to pay. Does your school have a Nurse that you can talk to? I know that you're mom may seem like an overbearing pain...but she does love you and you're probably going to have to face this together. Don't put this off - get to an MD!