I am 18 almost 19 and i don't have the best social life i have never been kissed or had a girlfriend i have depression and bad social anxiety which i have been battling since i was 13. I am not going to college because i started hearing voices in my head after i took accutane. Anyone reading this do not take that drug it ruined my life. I just hate my life i was bullied really bad in high school my freshman year and because of that i have such a low self esteem and i would never have the balls to approach any girls or ask them out. I just went back to my high school tonight to see my sisters concert and i just was bothered the whole time with seeing couples and other kids having so much fun and having the time of their lives. I seriously don't want to live sometimes and right now is one of those times. I feel like it will never get any better, i pray to god all the time but still never feel happy.
You have to change your life and attitude currently and try to be confident and optimistic